FrostyWolf

So I'm part of the corporate machine now. Finished off my short programming diploma (with flying colours, I might add) and before I knew it, I'm part of one of the largest technology companies in the world. I honestly can't complain, but... I still can't help but feel I don't belong. It's like I just don't have anything other than work and sleep now. No room to do anything anymore. No room to grow, other than in the business world. Which can be a very frustrating place. So many walls you run into.

I've also "recently" started playing Magic the Gathering. I say "recently", as I started a little more than a year ago, so I guess I'm still quite new at the game, but I am already a Tournament Organiser and have a player group of nearly 40. Which is rather large, when you consider that the game barely had any players in my area a year ago.

Anyway, I just feel like I'm leaving many of my skills unpracticed and unattended. I still feel like there is so much more I can learn to do, but that they are all time consuming interests.

Its an odd life. When I'm at home, all I want is more time, and when I'm at work all I want is more time.... and when I sleep... yeah.

So I guess it all starts over again.

I quit my job from the cell phone store last year, took a few months off to decide how to move forward in my life. So now I'm studying again, doing computer programming at a local college. Only 2 years. 2 more years of studying. And I feel so old now with this group of first years... most of them are 7 years younger than me. Luckily I don't look too old. Most of them couldn't believe I am 25.

So I'm doing the course using my Acer Aspire One netbook. Its an old A150, I've had it for about a year and a half, and its not doing too well with handling Microsoft Visual Studio 2010. So I'm trying to decide if I should just ride it out or buy something new. I've found a Gigabyte Q1585N with an i5 430M, 500gb HDD, 4gb DDR3 ram and a Geforce 335M. And its for a good price too. R5800 new ($799).

So if anyone has been wondering what I've been up to for the last 6 or 7 months, well there was a game that came out, called Starcraft 2. I pretty much play 5 or 6 nights a week.... and I never thought a strategy game could be this much fun, and surprised that I'm actually a decent player too. And when 6 of your friends play too it keeps you pretty busy, and away from working on art and vectors etc.

Strangely I've had Deja Vu 3 times on friday and twice today.... very wierd. And it wasn't with cool stuff like lottery numbers or anything involving personal gain (of the smallest type). I wonder if its because of the Fringe marathon I have been on lately. I swear that stuff really happens. And yes, I started many sentences with "And"..... sorry.

Lets hope I find some more time for art again, in between my studies.

So, a whole bunch of things have changed in my life recently. My brother moved out of the house, I got fed up with my old pc, so I bought a new one, then my 19" widescreen LCD broke. After finally moving or throwing away most of my brothers old stuff, I moved into his room. Quite a big room, upstairs loft type of thing. Only have my bed and new PC up here, clothes are still in the old room. Anyway, so today I bought a LG W2343T 23" widescreen LCD. Really really awesome!

My friends want to get out of their jobs and start an IT tech support company. We have a guy thats interested in funding us, but he doesn't seem to be agreeing on the way we want to do things. I think we should just go into it alone, try get a loan from the bank or something. I want to get away from my dead end cell phone retail job, but everytime I suggest it my parents are like "but how will you pay for stuff" or "you can't just sit and play games forever" or "stop being lazy". The thing is, I feel like I can do so much if I only have the time. I mean, today I had a great idea for a web comic, and also for a really cool web application. I just feel that I can figure something out if I just try, you know. Man... I don't know what to do. Its the rest of my life you know.

Not like anyone seems to care. Great.... now I'm emo.

Ok, I guess my freaking out in the previous journal entry was just jealousy. On saturday I walked into an MTN store just to see if they have stock of the Motorola Milestone, so that I can make sure I get one on my upgrade on the 26th May. So I'm asking the dude behind the counter about it and he says its a cool phona and all, and I say that I want one on my upgrade next week and he's like "oh, so you can upgrade already then, let me get one for you". And well, I had to go to another store where they had stock, but now I have my new phone! Its soooo cool. Now I want all my friends to get an android phone, so we can play games together and stuff. My one friend has an HTC Desire, and the other one has a Samsung Galaxy Spica (not on v2.1 yet, but we'll figure it out). Funny thing is I haven't even seen one of them yet but its all old news already coz we google talk so much.

Anyway, nerdyness aside. Felt like updating the Journal to get the ranting out of the way and what not. I went to an open day for the OpenWindow college / art school. The courses look sooo cool, but the price is insane. No way I can afford that. Might do one of the short weekend courses next year (coz I've missed the start date already). In other news I have a job interview at a local anime store on saturday, but they say they just need someone for a temp position, so I'm not getting my hopes up.... too much...

Need to upgrade my pc coz its kinda falling apart. USB ports and LAN port stopped working. Using addon cards to replace them, but at LANs I still get random crashes. Not cool. Then when I get home everything is fine.

K... back to phone.... need to try quake 3.....

Thats how I've been living my life lately, and I don't think its good. I've been doing too many things that I'm either putting off to a later date, or something that will cause me to hate myself the next day (like watching an extra few episodes of Fringe, or playing Stalker for just "one more hour", and then when I have to wake up to go to work the next day its not nice).

And talking about work... I need to get away from here. More and more things have been happening that I really don't agree with, and a few of them are downright dishonest. Like cheating customers out of money or freebies that they deserve. Also, I probably voided the warranty of a customer's laptop by doing something under the orders of my boss, and even though I said I didn't feel right with it he told me to do it anyway. Not cool.

On the drawing / artwork front, well... I'm moving into a new room soon, coz my brother moved out. And we got uncapped internet, so other things have kept me busy, like the DannyChoo site.

Oh, excuse me while I freak out a bit... Why are all my friends getting Android phones now when I was supposed to be the first one! I mean I've been telling them about all these phones I'm going to need to chose between at the end of May for my upgrade, and they've been pretty much ignoring me and saying "Its just a phone dude" or "why do you need such a fancy phone", and now I have 3 friends that either have, or are getting, Android v2.0 phones before me. AAAAargghhh!!!